“Great things are done by a series of small things brought together.” -Vincent Van Gogh
Today is a wonderful day.
I was chatting with Summer this morning about how great I feel today, then I stopped short and asked her if this was “gloating” because I didn’t want to feed my ego or make anyone else feel badly. Her response was simple and perfect:
No, I don’t think it’s gloating. I think it’s pride and that is healthy.
This is exactly what I needed to hear. It’s sometimes hard for me to take pride in myself and vocalize it because I don’t want to make anyone feel like a lesser person for any reason. It took me a long time and a lot of mental health work to be able to change my frame of thought and actually be proud of the things I am succeeding at instead of focusing on the things that I’m not doing perfectly. I think I owe it to myself, and to those who may look up to me, to show that it’s okay to be proud and share your accomplishments with others! So, I’m going to share about my really awesome day!
First, let me preface my awesomeness with saying that – astrologically speaking – I’m supposed to be in the middle of my month-long opposition, as a Gemini, which basically means that I should be struggling in many different areas of my life. Annnnnnd I’m not!
So last night, I did my usual casual stationary bike ride while Kenzie does the treadmill. I didn’t want to, but I’m her account-a-bili-buddy so I drug my ass to her little apartment gym and pedaled away for a half hour. That was actually really nice because my legs were sore from my workout the day before! Then, I went to Sparkies, a local craft brewery, to have a drink with some coworkers for a birthday. This was also super awesome because these kids are always inviting me to have drinks but it’s always super late and waaaaaay after my 8 pm bedtime! I had one (exceptionally delicious) kombucha and then headed home about 7:30.
I took a shower – which I normally don’t do at night but I wanted to wash my hair before my workout in the morning – and snuggled into bed with my meditation music on. I meditated and focused on manifesting money and used my mantra, “I am eternally loved by this Universe and everything is working in my favor.”
When I woke up to my 4 am alarm, I felt rested and didn’t need my extra 15 minutes of snooze so I decided to check all my updates and alerts on my phone… facebook, instagram, group messages for work, text messages, dog sitting messages, and then finally my bank account because I needed to get eggs for breakfast. I opened my banking app and there was a surprise extra $22! I had manifested $22 that I wasn’t expecting to receive!
Then, I got ready and left for my workout. By the way, I hit EVERY SINGLE green light on my way across town! I was still sore from Monday and Tuesday, but I managed to be a total badass in my workout and maintain an average 80% of my HRmax for the hour class!! I’ve NEVER been able to average higher than like 76%, so I was absolutely elated! I had sort of expected it to be an arduous class because I was under hydrated and I ate way too much sodium the day before. It. was. awesome. I pushed hard, my body was responsive to what my brain was telling it to do, and my heart rate reacted accordingly! It was such a wonderful feeling to have my mind and body finally on the same page for this damn class!
So, I left the gym and got some coffee on my way to Safeway. I stopped and got some eggs, as planned, but decided that I needed some meat, too; I didn’t feel like eating 30 grams worth of protein in eggs. I found “European Style Bacon” and decided that the sodium was tolerable and marched my way to check out.
When I got home, I proceeded to do the dishes that had been “soaking” for a couple weeks – I changed the water every couple days, but never had the desire to actually wash them. Then I changed and cleaned RuPaul’s water and food and gave him a new Millet Spray to snack on. I showered and did my hair and cooked my tasty breakfast of European bacon, Vital Farms eggs, and Brussels sprouts.
I know that these are all really small things, but it truly is the smallest things that make me the most happy! I feel amazing. I feel accomplished. I feel healthy. I feel unshakably happy.
Today I’m grateful for all the small things.